Making Things Happen

So I've decided to start making the transition to Portland. I've been so anxious about this change, wanting it to happen now and wishing that September (my anticipated move date) would arrive faster. I've been looking at job opportunities and just wishing that it were closer to the fall so I could apply.

And then I remembered - I'm the one in control of this situation and if I want to leave sooner then that is the goal I should work towards. It's tough though, because I'm also having to overcome this hurdle of fear, fear of disappointing my boss and leaving sooner than both she and I had anticipated. I really enjoy working with her and my other coworkers - it's a great office to be a part of and I'm going to be really sad to leave it. But my life circumstances have changed and they require a different plan of action than the one I originally implemented.

I'm excited for the change - I'm applying for my first job opportunity this week. It's a bit of long shot, but more than worth it if I get it. I only hope that I can overcome the fear of breaking the news to my boss and asking her to be a reference. I know in my heart that she will be glowing reference, but I feel guilty about leaving her so soon after all the kindness she has shown me. I've been so lucky working where I do, I hope I can somehow help that trend continue.